What an incredible weekend!!!! I was able to celebrate one of my girlfriend’s who will soon become a wife!! When life changes like this you have no choice but to be your happy self. It was such a great time in the water and sun and being with girls that you love. There is nothing like #GIRLPOWER.
So, you know when you are not supposed to go somewhere or be around someone and you do it anyway?? Well that is what happened to the rest of my night. Soooooo let me tell you…….I end up at a BBQ and I knew as soon as we got out of the car I shouldn’t be there. But my friends wanted to go and I had no other plans but to go home so why not??? I have had a lot going on so I figured that I needed a night to let my hair down and just be free. I have been so focused on my calling and my businesses that I thought that I needed to be like my old self. Whenever I try to have my old life, God does something drastic to get my attention and let me know that was not a smart move.
I end up drinking A LOT and that is something I haven’t done in a long time. Off top, I knew this night was going somewhere I didn’t need it to go. I see a “friend” of mine and we haven’t spoken in a while but I missed her so I wanted to hang with her. God always shakes things up when he is trying to take you somewhere so you can’t be your old self. Anyway, we leave together and get into a physical fight on the side of the road. Mind you, I haven’t been in a fight in years and it’s not something that I find is necessary when you can use your words. But, I’m not a punk lol.. So we FIGHT!!! Proverbs 20:3 says, “Any fool can start arguments; the honorable thing is to stay out of them.”
There was so many things said that were beyond hurtful and I can’t take back. Proverbs 21:23 says “Watch your tongue and keep your mouth shut, and you will stay out of trouble.” If I would’ve just hushed and kept my mouth shut maybe I could’ve saved this friendship but God clearly wanted this relationship to die. It was a part of my old life that I was holding on to and all old things must die so I could be made new. But this hurt!!!
I am learning that God will show you things through events and he always creates the exit strategy so you don’t have to go through stupid stuff like this. I take responsibility for my part and know that I am not of this world and if I dabble in the world then things like this or even worse will happen because I’m simply NOT SUPPOSED TO BE THERE!
I have to be transparent with you all because I do not need to portray that I am better or fake but I can learn from all experiences and know when I’m wrong and need to express that. I will always encourage everyone and I will remain true to who I am because that is the only way that God is able to speak through me. Some people will not like the path that you are on and guess what??? THAT IS OK!!! It is not for others to understand but for you to do God’s work and get the message out to whomever he needs you to reach.
To my “friend”, I apologize for my actions and my words and I am so grateful for your words that you spoke to me. You have helped me grow and move on and learn a major lesson that I would not have learned without you. So thank you for that!
When it is time to do God’s work, pay attention and understand to be successful and to live a victorious life you have to let your old self die. It is painful and relationships will not be the same but the life of eternity and peace is so much greater than anything the world can offer. Stay encouraged and understand that YOU ARE DIFFERENT! DON’T CHANGE OR LET ANYONE TELL YOU DIFFERENT! YOU ARE BEAUTIFULLY AND WONDERFULLY MADE. We all make mistakes, don’t let that get you down. Get up and start over! It’s ok .. God said so!
Love,
Raye
I may not have gone where I intended to go, but I think I have ended up where I need to be.
Simply Beautifull 